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Twilight upon the peaceful melody

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 05:01:45 +0000

I lay here feeling the stars and the twilight reflect on my skin
Touch!
Your fingers are most devilish
All my senses are alarmed of your presence
Your kisses sting my heart vessels
My innocents intrigues you, with a dire need of being close to me
My shy resistance tempts you more with my delicate touch.
Looking up at you with questionable eyes (that can stop a hundred men dead in their tracks).
My need for your protection brings warmth and reassurances to you
No words are needed to be said
Our love screams louder every time our bodies collide
You are my love, my life, the air I breathe and my soul’s desire
As we sit and watch the twilight disappear, knowing that you complete me and nothing will hesitate my love from reaching you makes the moment complete
The love we have for each other are the lyrics o a peaceful melody

By: Nalisa Komal

Here I Stand

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:59:56 +0000

Here I stand for those who can’t make their way up
people make mistakes
people fuck up
people have regrets
people are scared shitless
people lie people are just people
But remember mistakes shouldn’t remain mistakes they’re experience to learn from. Many complain that their lives are messed.

WAKE UP you have to fight the biggest struggle of them all…LIFE… You got to go through hell to make it to heaven

The life I live is the TRUTH they say the truth will set you free…But can they handle the truth…(Nahh) Lies are only told to save those you love from the painful truth

These days we live in a world where baby girls are having baby, doing drugs, getting raped, and murdered.

What can you do holding your new born in your arms…Close your eyes you see all the wrong that can come to that child you protect them until they hate you they think you don’t understand

“How can you understand mom, you don’t know shit, I can handle myself nothing is going to happen to me. You just don’t want me to have no fun!”…” AHH I HATE YOU” but whenever you close your eyes the demons of live hunt after her what can you do she needs to learn on her own

My mom doesn’t understand she doesn’t know how much I love this dude he treats me right he’s my world, he’s my life, BUT Why does he hurt me, I can’t do this no more

“Please stop!!”
“STOP”
IT’S TOO LATE

I blame the world
I blame my parents
I blame God
who’s left to blame but me… WHY am I so stupid why did I hurt my family why did I hurt myself, Sorry Ma…for making you cry because of me i know you work 2 jobs to give me and my brother what we want i know daddy can’t be here i know life aint easy for you Yet i am the biggest screw up.. You have enough problems but here I am giving you more problems fuck!!
I promise you I will never make you cry again
I will be better please stop crying I won’t hurt you anymore NOW Here I stand Smarter Wiser Better Skin thicker Stronger Here I stand at the TOP…

AINT NO FOOL GONNA BRING ME DOWN

Broken Emotion

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:58:38 +0000

I woke up thanking god it was just a dream
Breathing heavily, remembering what it was like
The pain I endure is unforgettable
To think I was once a person who continuously let him hurt me
I’m so tired of regretting you, your presences dwells inside me
Reminding me how much of a disaster I was
How do I free my soul and the tears I caged for so long?
Broken emotions with questions with no answers
I tried to escape, but i was always held back
Now laying on his chest listening to his heart beat..Thanking god that now I’m in a better place
By: Nalisa Komal

Ambitious Mind

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:57:53 +0000

No room for distractions, priorities are locked and set to go. My ambitious mind is what keeps me going, I put up these walls where I lay at the top, and no obstacle will bring me down
• The way I plan to live my life is very easy and planned out vigilantly. Clearly stating the obvious, I am destined for greatness and will be what I aspire to be and if you think less of me then that is what you assume of me, but that doesn’t affect me in anyway. while you’re contemplating on my failure, I’m working towards my future accomplishments
• New life, new perspective, new attitude, say goodbye to all the childish idle of life and bring the new ways of maturity throughout growth and inspiration
• During the time of acting upon impulse one feels free from being arbitrator, abhorrence or betrayal. My only true inclination is to maintain the sense of freedom of not following the ways of social order and live free of critical eyes and not risk social suicide.

The Truth

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:56:36 +0000

The truth..
There is a lot you don’t know.
I can’t hide the truth; it only takes time till it reveals itself.
There things I’ve done that I’m not proud of, many that i regret to this day.
There is no excuse for my actions, but I’m only human
i don’t want you to find out the harder way.
And now it’s harder because I’m falling in love with you.
Their going to talk, but when it comes down to what matters most, which is,
do you believe me or them?
I want you to know I only lied to protect you from what you didn’t know
They say what you don’t know won’t hurt you.
I know it’s not fair to you, you deserve to know about truth
but I’ m just afraid of what I have to say.
i might lose you forever
I don’t want to go on without letting you know.
Its killing me inside I can’t keep quite anymore.
When you ask what’s wrong I look up at you holding back ….with only one thing to say “Nothing”
Nothing is something that is been put to silence for too long.
So here I go I’m going to tell you the truth………………….
P.S I love you
By: Nalisa Komal

HIM

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:53:18 +0000

Him

He was the one that made me laugh, cry, angry, frustrated…..

But I loved him more than anything in this world

I remember lying in his arms where I felt safe listening to the rhythm of his heart beat

He was the only one who could put up with me

The only one that would challenge me to do better, to be better

He would fight back with me when I yelled and screamed

He made me realize I was wrong when I wasn’t right

He wasn’t afraid to show me how to life

Now that he’s gone I’m not the same without him

I pushed him away

I didn’t know what I had till I let it walked out the door

I should have never told him I didn’t love him or we will never be again

I was out of line, I know I hurt you so much and I wish I could take it back

I can’t stand knowing he doesn’t think of me the way I still think of him

That he will love someone else other me

Why can’t he see that I didn’t know what I wanted?

Why can’t he see I was wrong for doing what I did?

Why can’t he see that I need him more than ever?

My life is not the same without you

My friends told me I made a mistake breaking up with him

My family still asks for you, they loved you

The only reason why I did it was because I was turning into someone I didn’t recognise anymore

The jealousy, the unexplainable nasty attitude, confronting every chick he talked to

I am sorry for treating you like my emotional punching bag

You were are still there for me whenever I need you

You come running to my aid when I cry for you

I tried getting over you with other guys

But baby you are the one

I would always make some excuse for getting out of being with a guy

You are always on my mind

I have guys thinking I’m the coldest Bitch out there because I keep giving them the cold shoulder

I’m constantly comparing you to the other guys that come my way evaluating them to what they lack and what they could never be

Which is him….

I need you more than ever

I’m broken and you are the only one that can fix me

Please come back to me

Baby cant you hear my soul crying out for you, my cry is so loud the rest of the world hears it

I am tired of seeing others happy and having what I had

I need you

Emotionless

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:51:24 +0000

So many problems
I don’t know how one makes it through the day without contemplating suicide.
Is it all worth it?
When all we are working for is the eternal sleep
Fears I have of not succeeding.
Not making the ones the nurtured me proud to this day
Numerous paths are shown, but my mind wonders about a place where I wouldn’t have to worry.
I wear my heart on my sleeve, which makes it a target to get shot down.
Where are you?
Asking myself that question when misery hits the hardest
I cry out and wish with all my might for you to come and free me.
I feel suppressed to search for you because my physical state had worn out from all the damage I sustain.
Should I give into the calls of depression?
With all the desires and temptations you’ve fooled me so many times when I believed I had found you.
Your absent is the cruellest punishment
I fear the biggest disappointment of all is to never find you and be alone
Gazing upon those who are lucky to have find there companion.
Where are you?

Love = no good

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:50:01 +0000

When you are in love, the rest of the world doesn’t exist. It’s just that one person and yourself (who is completely and utterly in love), but what if that one person you love with such passion was bound to be your most dreaded enemy? The one who would turn you against everything and everyone you stood for? Being young and having idea of being in love can be very dangerous in the wrong hands.

Hate what you do to me

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:48:44 +0000

When I first saw you, I never expected you…
Never thought I would ever feel this way for another again
When I saw you I just wanted you to come over and hold me tight
I pictured a future with you; I wanted to spend my whole life with you
I felt safe with you especially when u rapped your arms around me
It didn’t take long till I realized how much I loved you
I wish You loved Me
I’d cry for you
I’d lie for you
I’d do anything for you just to make you happy

I cared for you; whenever something bad happened to you it scared me
You showed some interest in me, but always had me chasing you

All I wanted was your time, not even all of it
All I wanted was for you to care
All I wanted was for you to be there when I needed you
All I wanted was for you to make me feel like you appreciated me

I always blamed myself for the way I let you treat me but I know it’s wasn’t my fault
You showed your friend more gratitude
You spent more time with them then you would ever spend with me
Maybe you never took this as serious as I did
I thought you were the real thing
All i did was love you
I didn’t want to tell you because I was afraid I would’ve scared you off
I don’t want to force you to feel the way I do
Maybe one day you would realize what you had, but it would be too late then
I wish you loved me

By: Nalisa Komal

Hello world!

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:31:17 +0000

Hello world! I hope you all will tune into my random blogs about a teenage girl who is trying to make it in life. Sometimes i can’t help but feel that i’m alone in this world because i yet have to meet one that shares the same mentality level with me. I am 19, i live in Canada-Toronto. I have had my heart-broken one two many times. this time i will take everything slow and not think with my heart– THAT GETS YOU NO WHERE– i hope you all read my poems and my updates on life…..HERE WE GO!